Back to the "Grind"

I am soooooooooooooo happy to be back at work. (I never thought I'd think that). I didn't know how much I missed my job and the boys until today. As I pulled up to their house this morning, I saw Baby V and Triple B waiting at the door with HUGE smiles on their faces. I bolted up their driveway--couldn't wait for that baby to give me the biggest toothiest smile with arms reaching for me. But when the screen door was no longer between us, his smile faded and he turned toward his big brother.

My heart sank only a tiny bit. I thought this might happen. I swapped contacts for glasses and had cut a lot of hair off since he saw me last (and two weeks had passed), but when he saw my smile, he remembered and I got a big hug.

It's an amazing thing to realize how depressed you were when you are so happy. Needless to say, I did not reach my Spring Break Challenge. Not even close. My first week I was going strong. I made fun paintings, spent a day in the city with a friend, cleaned up the house, worked out, painted my nails, etc.

The second week was not so good. I painted a little, and ate and watched Netflix a lot. I Didn't work out much, I didn't read, I didn't go crazy cleaning the house or running errands, and I didn't talk to family or friends. I blamed it on my hormones. What else could it be?

I realized today that my Nanny Love Tank was empty! Normally, I spend all day with a happy, sweet baby who makes me laugh all the time. I'm active all day at work and I stay hydrated. When the older boys come home, we talk, play outside, and I get read to for twenty minutes a day. Then suddenly, nothing. Outside, it was just cold and clouds. Inside, stale and claustrophobic.

Anyway, I'm happy now. I can't wait to do something cool with the fine, white sand and the cool shells the boys collected for me. Thank you for coming home! I'm so happy to be back at work!